I have no desire to write this. Or wash my makeup off. My feet are cold and I just want to get in bed and read. Today was a really good, really long day though!
I woke up at 8 and laid in bed for a few minutes. I could hear some squirrels outside chasing eachother and playing. I got up and showered and dressed. I didn’t like my first 2 outfits and the one I ended up with felt a little short for work so I put bike shorts on under it. I washed my hair today so I was feeling sort of self conscious. So I stood in the mirror and tried to make myself feel better.
I had some important emails to send and things to do and I never found time to start my essays. But I had to be at work at noon today so I had to leave at 11. I spent the last half hour reading. Some actually sitting in the drive way because I had anxiety about leaving and I was cold in the house. I ended up crossing paths with dad on my way out so that was nice to see him for a minute. Something is going on with him and he’s sleeping a lot. I feel like he should go see his doctor but I don’t know.
I got to work early of course and went inside and cleaned up the room. I went and figured out which computers were working and logged them on. About 8 werent working but all the others seemed fine.
Jameer showed up around 1230 and we chatted about of plan for the 5 hour day and we came up with some semblance of a schedule. Once the kids got there we got right to homework. They had a half day for teacher in sessions, so we had a lot of time. I had a few kids tell me they had no homework and their bags were empty so I didn’t know what to do with that. And then another kid tell me he only had to color this one picture and then ran and got on the computer. I went and found his bag and he had 2 more pages of math. Then when he got off the computer and did the worksheet he said that all subtraction equaled 0. So we sat with crayons and figured out how to subtract. It took a while. Once again Shawn took 7 years to write his 5 sentences. But overall it was good we got everything done and got to play on computers for an hour.
We had a big dinner/snack of cheesey sticks and we tried to warm them up in the microwave but its hard to do 20 meals and make them all right. They were actually pretty tasty though.
At 4 we went outside and I brought a big thing of bubbles for the kids. Half played football, the others did bubbles with me. It was beautiful out and I had a good time. But when we were going back to the building some boys yelled some not nice things at me and sort of upset me a little. I didn’t say anything because I was with the kids but when we went inside I told Jameer and he was not happy and said to tell him next time and he would do something about it. That was nice of him.
We all got drinks when we got back and finished homework and played with kynex and computers and played deal or no deal. It was a nice afternoon. I mean there were hiccups and time outs. But overall I really like all the kids. I also got some hugs today so that was pretty sweet.
I had planned on going to this lecture tonight at vine street but man I’m just so beat and I would just be leaving the city now if I went and I’m so tired I probably would have died on the way home. Oh speaking of car accidents I saw one on the way home. I don’t know what happened but this poor lady was facing the wrong direction and the front of her car was all smashed. I hope she’s okay.
In other news apparently my brother is being discharged? I don’t know but my mom wants to put him on a psych hold because of some things he said in a text today. And I agree. He’s saying some crazy stuff. And I know he has pain but what drives me crazy is that people live with chronic pain all the time! Like I am always in pain and others are in pain and they don’t need drugs all the time or they will be useless. I don’t know. I mean use meds when needed but he’s basically threatening some deep stuff. Its really scary.
I’m going to get ready for bed now though. Its been a really long day. Sleep well.