fine art and thrift stores

It is to hot. I may reconsider my dad’s offer of the air conditioning this early. It is just so muggy and gross out. I just want to stay in a cold bath to keep from melting.

I biked to work and was told that for an hour instead of real work I would be watching the new 3D movie, Meerkats, which was adorable. So that was a nice surprise.

I also, for the first time ever, had people at the 3D theater form a line without any prompting, to give me their tickets. Strangest thing to ever happen? It’s possible.

Eric invited me to go with him to a barbecue tonight so I took the subway and met him down there. It was a nice time, and I laughed a lot. But he felt slightly offstandish when we were there. Before and after he held my hand, and he kissed me goodbye, but barely any hand holding happened at the thing itself. Maybe he just didn’t want to in front of his friends, but my mind goes straight to he is embarrassed of me. But why would he bring me if that’s true?

I made myself a milkshake. For dinner. Because I am an adult and no one can stop me.

Going home to my parents house tomorrow. 

Dad came over this morning and hung up my music boxes. And then took me to breakfast. We got omlettes. They were very good. I like having breakfast with my dad, he always has good stories to tell.

But he did tell my both my goldfish died this past week, which makes me feel not so great.

After breakfast I went to work where it was very cold.

Today was such a long day though. And I’m exhausted. And it’s so humid out.

I was bored my last hour at work until I spotted a mouse running around the gift shop. Which was adorable and fun.

I raced home because I was afraid of being caught in the rain, but thankfully it still hasn’t started. I hope it does rain soon though, cant deal with this humidity much long. 

I did not sleep well last night. I felt terrible and I woke up a hundred times. It was awful. Eric never was able to come over because his moped was having issues and fixing it took longer than expected.

Today I decided to change up the living room furniture and switch my desk with the couch. I think the room looks better this way. That took about an hour. And then I went and bought bread and bagels finally.

I started feeling nauseous once I got back from that so I took a cool bath for an hour and watched movies. Really terrible fake paranormal mockmumentries.  I love that style usually but “The Gacy House” was one of the worst movies I have seen in a long time. “The Forth Kind” was pretty good though.

Eric was going to try to make up to me not being able to hang out last night today, but I still feel sick and terrible and he ended up having to go to West Chester for work because his boss had to go to the hospital. So it just wasn’t meant to be today. He promises this weekend. So maybe Sunday I’ll get him all day again, which is nice and works out well for me.

Dad is coming over early tomorrow and taking me to breakfast before I have to work, so I am excited to see him.

Pray I don’t feel sick at work tomorrow, that would be terrible. 

I don’t have a lot to say today because I am so tired. Work was fun but I forgot my id badge, so I was locked out of stuff all day and that was annoying. But besides that it was a nice day where I met nice people.

I tied myself to the line’s pole today so it would be easier to take tickets and keep school groups out. Once girls said I looked crazy, but I wasn’t crazy I was an innovator.

Eric should be on his way over, which will be nice. But I’m sore tired and sore, so I don’t know how much fun I’ll be.

Day off tomorrow to recover from working today. 

I woke up determined not to get lost today. I went and got my laundry done. Now I did cave and just do it in the complex machines, but only because I had exactly the right amount of clothes to fit in them for one load of wash. It took forever though. I was spoiled by the hour wash/dry at the dorms. But I spent the almost 2 hours reading the book Sarah lent me about Kensington. Which I’m 6 chapters in and is fascinating.

After washing, drying, and putting away my clothes I rewarded myself by going to circle thrift where I got button down shirts for while I work at the library company. Also a few tank tops and a skirt. And some neat old photos from there free pile.

Eric texted me today and told me that the shop where he fixes his moped offered me the use of their welder any time I want or even just to come hang out.  I was completely touched. People don’t usually invite me or include me in there things. So whenever Eric invites or includes me I am always shocked. Like on Sunday when he said he got tickets for the Phillies game, I just thought he was canceling on me to go, not inviting me. Like that thought didn’t even occur to me that he would want me to come with him. It’s a combination of shitty friends I’ve had that would talk about parties or activities in front of me but not actually want me to come to, or boyfriends who would go to the beach or parties or the movies but not invite me, just tell me because they were breaking plans with me. I’ve basically been trained to assume I’m not invited, and I need it spelled out for me that I am being included.

But seriously excited that I could weld again!

I also went to the grocery store today, it was so beautiful out, so I biked all over. I got juice and muffins and chips. I am getting better at managing my time and figuring out how to enjoy the city and get done what I need to get done.

Work all day tomorrow, and then maybe Eric might come over. I really miss Vic’s sushi being like 4 streets away. I really could go for some sushi. 

Why is my sense of direction so bad? All I wanted to do today was my laundry. I went to the first 4 locations I could find on google. And none of them exist anymore. So basically I took my laundry for a walk for an hour. I got dizzy and sweaty and unhappy. I was absolutely furious. I got home and tried to calm down but I was just tired and uncomfortable and I just wanted my clothes clean.

Hayley says there is one on 6^th and Girard that is definitely there. So I will try to figure that out tomorrow.

I relaxed and eventually fell asleep because I was just worn out. When I woke up I made a milkshake. But I still feel like clammy. It’s not making me feel good.

I hope it’s just the weather and I’m not actually getting sick. I feel terrible tonight.

Binx left today, I will miss his little voice. But LC and Graice got my a fox stuffed animal for watching him. I didn’t really do any work but I am grateful for the cute toy.

Trying to do laundry again tomorrow and then if I figure that out I am rewarding myself with thrift store.

So I never woke Eric up last night. He just looked so handsome and comfortable and he would roll over and squeeze me and it was really nice. His alarm on his phone went off at 8 and it was cloudy and cold out so I gave him one of my oversized guy sweaters to wear home so he wouldn’t freeze to death. It was a nice night though. First time in a while I’ve shared a bed with someone, and my body kept waking up confused as to why I was on the wrong side of the bed. So when he left I slept for a few more hours.

But once I woke up I felt pretty terrible. I was dizzy and sleepy and I just didn’t feel right. I took a shower but had to sit on the floor and wasn’t sure if I was going to be able to stand up. It wasn’t a good feeling. I had to get to the bank today so Hayley could pay our rent this week. So I went online and tried to figure out the closest td bank atm. I tried to bike there but got hopelessly lost. And turned around for about an hour before I said fuck it and went to the branch on 16^th and jfk. I then took a longer way home.

I basically biked for 2 hours and I felt great. I was sweaty but I had biked through the tiredness and felt so much better than I had when I woke up. Says something for exercise I guess.

I still haven’t done laundry. Tomorrow. I have to figure this out tomorrow. It will be done. 

I only worked for a few hours today. Because last night Eric got tickets to the Phillies game and invited me. So when I went in to work I talked to my very nice manager Bill that I had tickets and he let me leave an hour early.

I got home at 120 and Eric came at 2. We walked to the subway and went to the stadium. I only remember going to one other game ever. Which was when I was 12 or 13 and was very mean to my mom. But this game was different. Our seats were really good and I could see everything, plus it was a beautiful day. Eric explained things to me and it was really cool. We got there late so we only saw half the game, and the Phillies lost, but it was still really fun.

As we were leaving Eric sees something in the bushes and it turned out to be a giant knife. He put it in his pocket and once we got back he washed it off because there was something on it. I think it was blood and it is a murder weapon that now will never be solved. But was most likely someone’s knife they left because they couldn’t take it into the game.

Once we got back I showed him my art and talked for a few hours. Then we got hoagies and watched animal shows for the last few hours. He fell asleep a few minutes ago and looks very comfortable.

I’ll wake him up eventually.

I didn’t sleep very good last night, waking up a lot. Today was exhausting but good and I had a nice time at work. Wasn’t super exciting and I wasn’t sure what I was going to blog about.

Then I came home and looked out the window for a while. On the 7^th street gate I see a cop car and 2 bike cops. The cop and one of the bike cops were lifting the other bike cop over the fence of my complex. So I’m freaking out. There is a group of children from the neighborhood yelling and surrounding them all excited. The cops open the fence and come in. the regular cop is walking around and draws his gun. I am getting scared at this point. Then he puts the gun away. The kids are yelling and the cops are talking about “oh he ran this way! He didn’t come out!” then the cop walks under my window with his gun out. I felt sick. I didn’t get a picture of it but it upset me a lot. They all left with the lights going but from what I could gather someone robbed a place around the corner they got one of them and the other jumped our fence to evaid the police. They followed him but took to long to get in and lost him.

It was pretty upsetting.

So I took a bath and scrubbed my head and I’m going to sleep.

Work for 4 hours and then Eric is taking me on a real date.